words by any other name would be another word

So I hijacked ol' Billy Shaskepeare's words...kind of. But that's the thing.
Words. They're amazing, incredible...just...ah!!

Words can inspire, create envy or love or passion, jealousy. Words paint pictures of beauty, pulling on your brain's neurons, triggering your senses.

Words can hurt, can crush. They can heal and save. Words can flow through us and make us chatter endlessly. Or they can suddenly stop; can't find the right word or have too many words to say at once.

That's the thing. We have so many words to say the same thing: I'm happy, I'm joyous, I'm tired, I'm sleepy, I'm angry, I'm mad. No one will say anything to same way ro ever write anything the same way. My comm teacher would tell us that there is nothing original left out there, nothing for anyone to newly create, just the same story line with a little flourish. But I beg to differ. Sure it can be boy meets girl, boy and girl fall in love etc, but that doesn't mean you've ever read my story.

Words are just stunning. It's funny to think that we can talk endlessly about our days, about class or work. But when the words matter, we spend hours, days on making them sound right. The minute we know they may become slightly memorable, words are suddenly worth something.

It's odd...not to long ago I received this awful comment on my facebook. None of which I believe is true, but they were awful things about me. It reduced me to tears made me reconsider myself.


"Dear Laura,
This is what i would tell you if you were to die tomorrow.
Most of your friends hate you.
And the only reason you have a boyfriend is because you have him whipped. Otherwise, he probably wouldn't be dating you.
Your friends put up this act because if you actually knew they hated you, you would probably be terminally depressed.
A) You're extremely loud and annoying. You may think "it's just who i am" but actually, you think you're SO AWESOME WHEN YOU SAY STUFF REALLY LOUD, actually its fucking annoying.
B) You think you're the shit. NEWSFLASH: YOU'RE NOT! Actually you're far from it. You probably have no idea that ATLEAST 10 people have a countdown to graduation because that means they never have to deal with you again.
C) You're a bitch and extremely bossy.
D) You cry ALL THE FUCKING time for attention.
E is for Emily because she is NOTHING like you (except maybe D) But most people like her a hell of a lot more than you, which is probably why she's had more boyfriends.

Sincerely,
One of your best friends."

it's hard to believe anyone would ever use those words...I see and read and say these words always yet in that combination they broke me down. reduced me into a puddle of self-loathing.
Then, my friends and family to the rescue. Simple phrases like: "Laura, you know that's not true! Don't believe what they say! you're a wonderful person." inched me back into happiness.

Words can create love and passion, inspiration. Yet words can cause pain and hurt, destroy people into nothing. Words can make us fall in love or make us hurt ourselves.

Words truly are astonishing.

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I have no idea what to write today. :) But I realized I haven't written in a while. So I thought I'd update with...something. Hmmm... how about...I do...my favorites? Yea? Well...favorites and guilty pleasures. :)

ok. Here we go!

Music: favorite band: Paramore. If you've never heard of Paramore, get off my blog and go listen, then you may come back and read. ahaha. Just kidding. :) Though you really should go listen. And go to any concert you get the chance to go to. Hayley Williams is one of my all time favorite people; her voice is just so amazing!
Other then that, I love pretty much all kinds of music. :)

Books: Oh my good golly gosh, I love books! I can't even pick a favorite. :) Though I have to send my love out to Harry Potter. I am such an HP nerd! I am so glad I have a season pass to Harry Potter World. :) It's the best! (yes, nerd. Twilight can suck it.)

TV: Big Bang Theory. also a nerdy goody. :) And a crime show. And a guilty pleasure
: ghost shows. Even though my over active imagination tends to go crazy with those shows. :)

Clothes: uhmm....I have no idea. I'm just thinking of random subjects. I love dresses and skirts and skinny jeans. Just like everyone else. lol.

Shoes: My converse, black and silver flats, and my black sandals. Oh! And my black patent leather pumps. :)

Uhhhm...

Movies: Too many. :)

School Subject: psychology. It's awesome and so is my professor.

Guilty Pleasures: chocolate covered strawberries and pretzels, knitting, smoothies, ghost shows, youtube, make-up and sweet tea. :)

Dear Uterus,

What have I done to you? Seriously. It's not like I've ever stabbed you...yes i know my seat belt sits low, but I'm not the one driving,so when the brakes slam, you're not the only thing crushed.
And another thing...don't get angry at me because I don't give you a baby! That's way inappropriate! I'm 18 for crying out loud! I don't need a baby...maybe I should just get you removed.
...
Until I actually want babies.
I blame you, oh uterus, for so many things...cramps. Oh cramps...why...why oh why oh why?! You put yourself and me through that? You don't need to! It's terrible...
And don't think you're getting out of this hormones: thanks for making me cry too much, and break out, and want way too much chocolate...You and the cramps and the dumb chocolate...though...the chocolate helps with the cramps...but not the breaking out. Grr all of you...

oh, damn you uterus...

Love,
Laura

I kind of suck at this whole blog thing. -_-

Oh well. :) It's my first one and I've been working through school. I haven't quite gotten my school balance right yet. I do tend to sit at the school a lot, yet I rarely do home work because in my (crazy) mind I figure "I just spent 2 hours, if not more, in class and my brain just needs a break..." so out come the book and the iPod...oh well. :)
Being in college is so freaking sweet. Of course I do wish I had gone off to a four year school right off the back, but I'm proud of where I'm going and I'll get to a four year eventually. :) My education is any less important because I'm in community college then those of my friends, but again I'm happy. :) Plus, regardless of what anyone says, this does give me time to work out school with my boyfriend since he's a few years ahead of me, this will give us time to work out school together (meaning we won't have to be too far from each other) and I like that. I don't want distance to be what ruins us.
I've put off my homework for the past two days, while all the elementary/middle/high schools have off monday, I have my first test. Then another test on tuesday for biology and an essay due. Oh! and a speech. ... right. Time for work but instead of doing that, I'm blogging and watching "The Game Plan" with Duane (Dwayne? y? i?) "The Rock" Johnson...it was in USA. ;)
So...what else...oh! I never even posted anything about my 18 birthday! It wasn't the most exciting birthday...I had my 7 am class. -_- And, my parents kind of forgot about my birthday...yea...so anyway, despite having to get up early, I got an awesome surprise!!! Year passes to Island of Adventure/ Universal!!! So I spent the day there (in a princess tiara!) and yes I saw Harry Potter World I was beyond happy about that. :) The next day, my parents went present shopping. Got a couple things: gift cards to moe's and rave, new ear phones (yay!!!) and a huge cake. :) Sam, Jimmy's sister, got me this adooooooorable dress! And I bought myself concert tickets to Paramore (at UCF arena). Plus I got a massive amount of happy birthdays on facebook. So, while it wasn't an extravagant birthday, it was a nice one.
Now since I mentioned it before, the Paramore concert was too amazing for words. :) I was mad at myself for forgetting my camera...but I saw my favorite band ever and got to stay with the best older sister and future brother-in-law! There were three opening bands: Ada Watha (I believe it was...) a new band all the way from Sweden, then New Found Glory, and then Teagan and Sara. I felt like it just took forever for Paramore to finally come on, but so worth the wait when they did. The set was amazing, the arena was packed and we sat right above back stage. :) I didn't have VIP seats like my friend, and I wasn't in general admission where the luckiest couple of kids got to go on stage with Paramore, but I wouldn't have traded the night for anything else. One of the best nights of my life. Jimmy bought me a tank top that says the new album and the back says Paramore. I would live in the shirt is I could and if I wasn't so worried about it being worn out. ;)
random side note: I wish I was a ballerina...
Let's see what else...
Today (9/11) I happily celebrate a year and a half with my amazing boyfriend Jimmy. He means beyond everything to me, I absolutely love him and love being with him. He's the best thing in my life! He makes me happy and I love him. Yes, I'm mushy and cheesy, but I like it like that!
Also today, while I am happy, I do remember what happened 9 years ago. At the time I was living in Germany and don't remember much other then my mom coming to get me in the middle of the school day. All the grown ups were scared and acting funny and I had no idea what was going on. Then I saw the TV screen my parents had been trying to avoid having me see. I was scared and shocked, confused. The news said to lock the door, no one would say what was happening. I walked up and lock our door, even if we were across the ocean of the targets. I cried, I was so scared. Now, years later I have such an understanding of what happened. it's a terrible moment in our history and I just want to say that every single live lost in all the attacks on that day are not forgotten and you were not lost in vain. To all the their families, while you still may grieve, remember that the entire country is remembering you lost son/daughter and that we all send our strength to you. To all the heros at Ground Zero and at the other attack grounds, while you may still have nightmares, while you mourn you fallen team members, your bravery and your honor to serve your country at it's time of need is beyond the call of duty and we will be forever in your dept. To all involved on 9/11 some of you may be gone, but never forgotten. May you have the strength to look back on this day without much grief and fully accept all of our well wishes and strength.
I love all my readers (Megan I know you're there!!!) who ever you may be,
Laura