So I hijacked ol' Billy Shaskepeare's words...kind of. But that's the thing.
Words. They're amazing, incredible...just...ah!!
Words can inspire, create envy or love or passion, jealousy. Words paint pictures of beauty, pulling on your brain's neurons, triggering your senses.
Words can hurt, can crush. They can heal and save. Words can flow through us and make us chatter endlessly. Or they can suddenly stop; can't find the right word or have too many words to say at once.
That's the thing. We have so many words to say the same thing: I'm happy, I'm joyous, I'm tired, I'm sleepy, I'm angry, I'm mad. No one will say anything to same way ro ever write anything the same way. My comm teacher would tell us that there is nothing original left out there, nothing for anyone to newly create, just the same story line with a little flourish. But I beg to differ. Sure it can be boy meets girl, boy and girl fall in love etc, but that doesn't mean you've ever read my story.
Words are just stunning. It's funny to think that we can talk endlessly about our days, about class or work. But when the words matter, we spend hours, days on making them sound right. The minute we know they may become slightly memorable, words are suddenly worth something.
It's odd...not to long ago I received this awful comment on my facebook. None of which I believe is true, but they were awful things about me. It reduced me to tears made me reconsider myself.
"Dear Laura,
This is what i would tell you if you were to die tomorrow.
Most of your friends hate you.
And the only reason you have a boyfriend is because you have him whipped. Otherwise, he probably wouldn't be dating you.
Your friends put up this act because if you actually knew they hated you, you would probably be terminally depressed.
A) You're extremely loud and annoying. You may think "it's just who i am" but actually, you think you're SO AWESOME WHEN YOU SAY STUFF REALLY LOUD, actually its fucking annoying.
B) You think you're the shit. NEWSFLASH: YOU'RE NOT! Actually you're far from it. You probably have no idea that ATLEAST 10 people have a countdown to graduation because that means they never have to deal with you again.
C) You're a bitch and extremely bossy.
D) You cry ALL THE FUCKING time for attention.
E is for Emily because she is NOTHING like you (except maybe D) But most people like her a hell of a lot more than you, which is probably why she's had more boyfriends.
Sincerely,
One of your best friends."
it's hard to believe anyone would ever use those words...I see and read and say these words always yet in that combination they broke me down. reduced me into a puddle of self-loathing.
Then, my friends and family to the rescue. Simple phrases like: "Laura, you know that's not true! Don't believe what they say! you're a wonderful person." inched me back into happiness.
Words can create love and passion, inspiration. Yet words can cause pain and hurt, destroy people into nothing. Words can make us fall in love or make us hurt ourselves.
Words truly are astonishing.
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